I'm Tired

of explaining myself

of not knowing what the eff I'm doing on this project

of waiting for feedback

of not sitting still and constantly being on the go

of not having shit to do

of reading

of not being understood

of people perceptions

of (failing at) managing those perceptions

of not knowing how all this is going to work out

of not naturally playing by the rules

of not knowing what the effing rules are

of this stupid mood.