I think of articles/blogs I want to write all the time, and over the course of a week or two, draft them out in my head, fluffing them out piece by piece and rearranging paragraphs into better places. I come up with perfect lines and phrases, and profound conclusions, but the moment I open the blogger window, it all flees.
I thought, maybe if I start writing the pieces on my blackberry, I wont lose the entire thing. I tried that last night in front of the television as I watched 16 and pregnant. I have a blog on loneliness that starts out sad and ends on a note of hope and joy and the beauty of solitude, but I only got through one line.
I have another I dreamt up at the airport last week called "This summer I will" that was my list of resolutions (because why would I make them in January when the weather is awful and sometimes all we have is our vices to keep us warm?) and each day, as I slapped sunscreen on my face after my moisturizer (resolution number 1) having showered after no more than 2 snoozes on my alarm (number 2!) I thought of all the other awesome habits I planned to develop and made my mental list for the summer of awesomeness and swore I'd put them to paper as SOON as I got to work each day. I froze and, instead, tweeted inanities.
I really need to figure out how to do things that scare me. So the next thing I am putting on my list (and please don't try to hold me to it, the pressure only makes it worse) is that This summer, I will write a piece I am proud of, that isn't just me vomiting out my random thoughts. I will somehow stick this between beginning to learn French (number 3) , applying to the AfDB (number 4) and consuming copious amounts of frozen yogurt covered in mango, strawberry and kiwi pieces.
Oh yeah, and attending weddings. And laughing constantly (Seems like I'm doing a great job of those two already).
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